world not going as ordinary person hoped

I read this while crashing from a cookie batter high:

http://uk.oneworld.net/external/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fweb.amnesty.org%2Flibrary%2FIndex%2FENGAMR510082006
http://us.oneworld.net/external/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.oxfamamerica.org%2Fnewsandpublications%2Fnews_updates%2Fnews_update.2006-01-04.6977033848
http://us.oneworld.net/external/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.ens-newswire.com%2Fens%2Fjan2006%2F2006-01-10-07.asp

You know, the world is not turning out as I had hoped.

Deciding to control everyone and be the only superpower at any cost was a bad choice. Dehumanize people, spend trillions of dollars more than the oil we're trying to control is worth, civilian deaths and ruined lives, soldiers getting shot at, creating enemies, no $ for quality of life at home, knowing you're part of an imperialist (getting more totalitarian?) state, and part of a world based on violence and environmental destruction (60 degrees today folks, January 12).

\'m not really simpleminded, but it does seem like we\'re too in it to see it clearly, we\'re being the people you look back on and go "Didn\'t they see it coming? Why didn\'t they do something?" (If there\'s anyone left to look back.)

I know a lot of people ARE "doing something."

I\'m really not simpleminded or apocalypse-oriented. Well maybe a little too apocalypse-oriented, sometimes. It\'s just SO sick sometimes. The Gauntanamo stuff makes me SICK.

How worried can we afford to be on a day to day basis? But then _at what point_ can we no longer afford NOT to be? And then, where is the rallying point or leverage point amidst all the complexity? I sometimes think it might have to do with telling the right stories.